Slowly back on track

So things have been okay the last little while. I'm still swamped with things stressing me out, but good things have started to come along. I guess I'll start with the bad shit.

1. Money. I have none, and I need it bad. After Alleah moves out my rent will be 500 and I can't afford it. Especially because I still need to pay the rest of my tuition. I can't take my exams until it is paid off, but every time I get a little bit of money it ends up going towards rent or food or the fucking bills. I tried talking to financial aid, but they were a bunch of jerks and didn't help at all. They just gave me a bursury application that wouldn't be helpful anyway because the money wouldn't be given until next semester. Ya, thanks guys, that helps. I've tried asking my dad for help, but he's not responding to my emails, and my mom can't cover it herself, not with her bills and my two brothers.

2. A job. I've had two interviews at Things Engraved now, and I was fairly confindent that I would get the job, but I haven't heard back yet. She said she would call me on thursday, or possibly saturday if somthing came up. So now I get to wait. I'm running out of time!!! I need a job as of like, three weeks ago.

3. Friends. (not all of you, don't worry.) There are a couple people who have been pissing me off lately, to the point where I am seriously considering telling them to fuck off and never talk to me. And then there is one who is being a friggan jerk... again. It's not cool to make plans with me then dick off with someone else. Come on.

Now for the stuff that's been good:

1. Lisa. I love Lisa. She is fantastic and I can't wait to live with her. It's funny how last year we really didn't associate much, but this year we have gotten so much closer. I'm definitely glad we did. She has been so supportive of me and just a great friend. *warm fuzzies*

2. Dracula!!! I get to see it on monday and I am so excited. I've wanted to go from the second I found out it was coming. ^___^ Thanks again Lee!

3. Kids Fest. Robin asked me to work on it!!! It's going to be so much fun!! And I get to go to Vic for a couple days while its there, which will be awesome. It really is awesome how much tech stuff I've been asked to do lately. I always think that I'm not that good and such a n00b techie, but I guess I've proven that I am capable of it, and that makes me really happy cuz I've been working so hard to get where I am now. I've still got a lot to learn, but at least now I know I'm not hopeless.. haha

4. Hitchhikers. I'm in the radio play!! yay!!! It's gunna be so much fun ^____^

5. And then of course, Terry. I'm sure most of you have either heard about him or have met him by now, but I guess he's still kind of a mystery to a lot of you. Basiclly, we have been getting to know each other for a little while and now we're kind of seeing where things are gunna take us. He is super sweet and I like him a lot, so I'm excited to see where this leads. (please take this time to refrain from any *pop* jokes -_-)


now to finish off my post, I will be a trend whore.

10 Things I'd Like to Accomplish in the Next 10 Years...

1. Be able to pay my bills and rent and crap without the help of my parents. I'm so sick of taking their money. I feel so bad every time I have to ask for help.

2. Find a stable job in theatre. That's pretty self explanitory.

3. Travel. I've hardly been anywhere in my life, and I've certianly never traveled. I've never even left Canada. boo-urns. I have no exciting adventures in other countries to share and it makes me sad.

4. Find someone worth getting married to. I don't necisarily expect to get married in the next ten years, cuz it is a farly short amount of time, but I would like to start settling down at least.

5. Visit my family more. I hardly get to see them, especially my dad's side, and I'd like to visit more often.

6. Spend more time with me. I want to take a meditiation class or yoga or somthing and just take a few hours out of every week to be me. No computer, no people, no movies, nothing. Just me with myself, relaxing. I think it would really help release some of the stress and tension that has been gradually building the past few years.

7. Spend more time with children. I want to have them someday, but I would definitely be no where near ready any time soon. And I do like kids... most of the time. I want to learn to be more tolerant of kids. I also want to keep my fun, childish side. I need to learn how to balance being a responcible adult with being a fun-loving goof ball. I don't want to turn into a boring 9-5 desk job with an empty apartment and no life. I like fun. And I like being silly sometimes. I think children are the perfect excuse to dress up like a princess and play hide and seek. ^_^

8. Learn when to vent my frustrations. I hate conflict, so I let things build and build until I can't take it anymore and I crack. It's not healthy and I need to stop being afraid to hurt my friends feelings. I need to understand that if a friend is doing somthing that bugs me, and I talk to them about it, they won't hate me. A real friend isn't going to ditch you because you asked them to do the dishes more.

9. Spend less time doing nothing in my spare time. I want to get out and do things, or stay in and read a book.. I'm so sick of watching movies and lurking the internet when I have a free day. I feel so lazy.

10. Stay in contact with all the people I have grown close to over the past couple years. I've made some really good friends and I would hate to leave the program and never see any of you again.


10 Songs I'm in Love With Right Now

1. Chasing Cars- Snow Patrol
I am totally in love with this song. It has a lot of meaning to me right now and I just can't stop listening to it!

2. Soul Meets Body- Death Cab for Cutie
This song just kind of sums up my thoughts recently. It's a great song and I love everything about it.

3. Transatlanticism- Death Cab for Cutie
I've been obsessed with this song for a while now. It's just so pretty and I love what I get from it. "I need you so much closer" ... that line could speak to anybody.

4. So I Need You- Three Doors Down
Love this song. It's just so cute!!!

5. Can't Take it In- Imogen Heap
This is such a pretty song and I've loved it ever since I saw Narnia.. hhaa I bought the Narnia album and everything.

6. Temperature- Sean Paul
Haha yea I know. But it's so catchy and so fun to dance to!! And I love the way Sean Paul sings.

7. mOBSCENE- Marilyn Manson
I <3 Manson. He is a god. And I adore this song ^_^

8. Mechanical Animals- Marilyn Manson
I think this is one of his best songs ever.

9. Lying is the Most Fun a Girl Can have Without Taking her Clothes off- Panic! At the Disco
I just love it.

10. Feels Like Home to Me- Chantal Kreviazuk
I love this song so much. It reminds me of love, home, family, friends.. all that kind of stuff. I think it's fantastic.


Kay I'm done. Proceed to Comments. :P